Signs

Let's talk about signs. It's all I ever see are signs. Last night, I shared with the abundance class how I've been putting off finishing my book proposal because I've said to myself, "there's no time right now." It's been this way for the past four years. First it was, there's no time because I'm staring my healing practice. Then there was no time because my practice was busy. Then there was no time because I was going through a divorce and moving my business. Then friends were visiting. And a new friend moved in. And the house was upside down. And, and, and.

There's always some excuse to put something off, isn't there?

I'm cutting myself slack because I have been going through enormous changes, and I told myself yesterday, if you don't feel ready to finish the proposal, stop saying you don't have time and just admit you're not ready yet, or the timing isn't right.

So I released the excess pressure, and let it be.

This morning I got an email from a client who recently published a book and wrote a good paragraph to me about why I need to write my book now, and she even gave me the contact info for a "book coach" who helps you with the process, and hopefully in my case, gives me a royal kick in the butt to finish it.

I got the picture, angels.

More signs...

Yesterday, I wrote something in my blog about feeling I was in a beautiful chakra rainbow. On the way to my massage, I got stuck behind a truck moving slower than a snail, and when I decided to stop being impatient and notice what the signage said I saw in big letters: Rainbow. It was the name of the company. Angels had me get stuck behind it so it was extra obvious!

The angels have taught me to notice the details in life. There are so many details, all around us. Are you noticing the little details in your world? They're there, speaking to you, reaching out to you, affirming to you, every day.

Tough Love from Raj the Spirit Guide

My mind was real busy yesterday during my massage. Partly because I hadn't been in so long, my muscles were like sheets of steel. So it hurt. Secondly, once I started to feel the ahhh of the relaxation therapy kicking in, all I could think about was putting the final touch on my home studio so I can share the blissful experience with others, through Reiki.

Every time I experience something wonderful, I'm always thinking of how I can share it with others. How can you keep a great feeling to yourself? I find myself constantly inspired of how to give, and nothing inspires me more than self-care and play.

The massage limbered me up to begin my pilates practice again. It's been a few months, way too long for me to go without this mind/body stress reliever. It was frustrating to feel my body struggling, the muscles obviously weaker than usual. But I felt so much better afterward. With baby steps of just 20 minutes a day, I will work my way back up to feeling strong again. It's so grounding, too. I love exercise, just not so much when I don't do it for a while. It's always the initial work outs that are the most challenging, after that you get into the groove.

Last week, one of my spirit guides, an Indian yogi named Raj, literally yelled at me (with tough love) to start my yoga practice again. He's rail thin, and always appears to me wearing a button down shirt, casual pants, and a turban. He has large, intense brown eyes and looks to be in his twenties, maybe a young looking thirties. He's very serious, especially about yoga and meditation, and I think I must annoy him with my airy nature. But he is great at helping me discipline myself so I can be the best I can be, and feel the best I can feel.

God bless Raj. One must have a lot of patience to be my spirit guide.

New Blog Inspiration

My friend has been an inspiration to blog daily. Thank you, Charlotte.

Since I left my writing career four years ago, I've had this weird relationship with writing. It's almost like I've broken-up with it, neglected our relationship, and now I feel like I have to keep it to a minimum, not get too attached because our relationship has changed now. It's been a source of heartache to me, to leave such a fulfilling source of expression. So I've let writing know that I want to get back together and mend our relationship, so we're working regularly again together.

I've got to do this if I ever want to finish this freakin' book proposal.

So I've decided I'll be online journaling here more often and hopefully not boring you to pieces in the process.

Yesterday was one of those hell-on-wheels sort of days where everything feels crap. But today was like waking up in a Disney movie. Everything felt calm and magical again. The dark cloud of stress passed, leaving a chakra rainbow behind for me.

The angels are always on me about self-care. I need to practice what I teach because if I don't, I'm a stress case in my personal life. When it comes to work (readings, healing, teaching) there is this energetic bubble I'm placed in so no matter what is going on personally for me, I'm transported to heaven for that time and high on positive vibes. It's quite incredible, actually, and a real blessing that the angels provide this for me and my clients so our sessions are always high vibration. This healing bubble gives me an energetic adjustment so I receive peace and healing, too.

So today I'm going for a much-needed massage with a new therapist. My old one left. Sad about this because she was my reflexology teacher and was a great healer. Some people are natural born healers, and others just don't have their heart in it. I can always feel the difference.

I'm sending distant Reiki to my appointment time, and affirming the experience will be deeply relaxing, and just what I need. Then, with this spa feeling uplifting me, I will channel the angels message for tonight's abundance class. Really looking forward to hearing what everyone's experience has been last week. The shifts are incredible, and I'm really proud of this class. They're inspiring me.

Stress Overload

For a while, my life was what I've now learned is normal, or should be normal. It was calm, with time to meditate and exercise in the morning. Everything felt within balance, and I had a clear mind.

This past year has been insane with changes, and I've felt knocked off my balance. It made me remember what life used to be like in the old pattern of stress, stress, stress, go, go, go. Today I got a killer migraine, something that's very rare for me. I think it's my second I've ever had in my life. I literally felt "TMI" too much information surging through my head, an awful congestion of energy that felt like my skull would pop off like a firework at any minute.

Thank God for these homeopathic tablets that put an end to that.

It got me thinking, I learned that life doesn't have to be that way, and I've got tools to chill out and re-balance, but there are millions of people in the world who think that having constant migraines and feeling completely overwhelmed is normal. There's this whole culture out there who believe this is just the way life is, and you "puke out the stress, and the pain goes away" as a medical assistant told me today.

Is this a philosophy to live by? Puking out stress is just as routine as putting gas in the car?

I'm re-building a life right now, so I'm a busy bird. The sensitivities I have are great for healing, but when it comes to things like a move and boxes and crap everywhere, or things majorly out of order, stuff like that, my whole system goes on meltdown after a boiling point of tolerance is reached. I've found myself in tears a few times, and even screamed in the car today. But I don't think I'm the first person in L.A. traffic to do that.

I know the stress has got to get out, so I let it come out. If people are walking around with this amount of busy energy in their heads, and no time to rest or be in quiet time, no wonder they're having a hard time hearing their angels or listening to their intuition. No wonder people feel blocked or have aches or pains. No wonder they feel so miserable and depressed. If I thought this was all life was about, constant stress and no time for play or self-care, or to connect to the divine, I'd be first on line for a Prozac IV!

Stress is deafening. It's numbing. It imprisons the soul and creates the illusion that there's no time, you have to do this or that or it won't get done. Everything will fall apart unless you....

Stop.