My Independence Day

Growing up an only child, all I ever knew was independence and solitude. I remember from an early age, there were times I'd feel stressed hanging out with friends and would rather be alone because there was always some kind of drama, like girl jealousy, or family stress. I always felt I had enough of my own challenges in life (my lessons started really early on) and preferred to spend my personal time, when I was out of school, playing in the woods with the fairies and my spirit guides. I had an active imagination and would put on plays with all the characters I felt around me. I found the perfect flat rock to serve as the "stage" furniture, there was a mossy green floor that looked like carpet and a tree that provided a canopy of leaves that looked just like a roof for my outdoor theater!

I never had a problem making friends, and I did enjoy spending some time with them, but at a minimum. I've always attracted people into my life who've needed healing, since I was a child. I felt urged to help the people who came my way, and in my heart always knew that this was my "calling," why I was here. When I was helping others, life made the most sense to me.

For 35 years I've judged myself for what I felt was anti-social behavior because aside from helping others, I haven't felt a need or desire to have a social life like others do. I haven't met a lot of people who understand my need for solitude. The few cherished friends that I keep in contact with have known me since I was a kid and accept me just as I am, but I've struggled on and off with accepting this part of me.

When I was in my 20's, I had quite a social circle, because I felt this was the "normal" thing to do, and how you will be accepted. But I was exhausted all the time. Without that alone time to recharge, and getting caught up in the distractions and illusions of human drama, I became an angry, miserable person. Alone time, for me as a multi-sensory empath, is vital, like recharging a battery. I'm like an antenna for psychic information, (I'm a Gemini and metal element, too), I'm always receiving and transmitting. I have an internal meter that begins to drop when I'm not giving myself quality, quiet alone time. My antenna can start to blow a fuse if I'm overloaded with no time to clear and recharge! My work (and personal life) delves into the trenches of life on earth, and my alone time brings me back home to Heaven to rest and heal.

I've heard some people believe that being an only child is lonely. That's assuming the child isn't intuitive and imaginative, which most only children are. I am so thankful to be an only child. It allowed me to connect to spirit so much easier without the distraction of siblings. It taught me how to feel safe and have fun by myself. An only child is more likely to be independent, not co-dependent, because they are used to being on their own and solving their own problems, with the help of divine guidance. An only child knows the value of quiet time and benefits from the holy opportunities that silence offers the soul.

When I'm spending time alone, I hear everything around me so loud and clearly. Today, on this beautiful Fourth of July, I heard the birds singing a choir, watched a bee clean it's head in detail, and was in awe by the helicopter-like sound of a winged bug flying by! Instantly I had images of musicians, planes and hang gliders and thought of how inspired we've been my the world of nature. Nature has set a blueprint for our human development.

In the overgrown garden ahead of me, I can feel the fairies fluttering about and if I allow my gaze to soften, I will see them in their habitat. When I further relax and release all thoughts from my mind, like pouring out a glass of yesterday's water, I will receive messages from the angels and nature spirits around me who are always providing more insights for me to pass along to others.

This Independence Day, I am freeing myself from the tyranny of ego and accepting myself just as I am. I'm releasing the need for people to "understand" me and chose to live my life freely according to what brings me joy and peace, making no apologies for what I need to contribute to the world what God has sent me here for!

Join me in this liberating practice of accepting yourself just as you are and honoring every part of your unique and special being. God and the angels love you, and I do, too! XO

P.S.

I'm thrilled to be hosting healing retreats so you can experience the divine gifts of nature and silence with me. Check out the website for details, and join us in Washington D.C. this October for some much-needed R&R with the angels!